“There is an occasion for everything,
and a time for every activity under heaven:”
Life is full of seasons. This week I have been reminded of this. Mostly because, for me right now, I am in a trying and sometimes lonely season. Currently, I am mom to a 5 year old, 3 year old, and 1 year old. We have been dealing with everything from a 14 month old that just cut his 16th tooth last week, to a 3 year old who is learning to control emotion and boyish tendencies to throw, hit and jump every second of the day, to a 5 year old that sometimes can be a little too big for her britches and seems to have the emotions of a 15 year old some days. I stay at home with the children while my husband works Tuesday-Friday, and I usually work for my business on most Mondays and Saturdays. I haven’t been to church or our small group Bible Study in nearly 2 weeks, due to a fussy baby and bedtimes, and sometimes it is just plain exhausting. The laundry pile seems to grow exponentially and the floors seem to cough up dirt and crumbs 5 seconds after being cleaned. I stay up way too late many nights, just to enjoy the peace and quiet that occurs in our home once everyone is asleep. Sometimes I get cranky and have an overwhelming desire to lock myself in a closet and call it a day! (Okay, not really!)
Please do not get me wrong. I love my children more than I can begin to express and they are such a joy to me! There are many days that the hugs, kisses, and “I love you”s, bring my heart to a point where it is so full of love it might explode! There are still the other days though, when I have to work hard at being the mother that I know I am called to be. My love for my family never wavers, but my human, tired, emotional self sometimes wins. Sometimes I have to remind myself of what I know to be true and I have to pray more and take the day just a small piece at a time. Sometimes I have to come back and read my own words, just like this post from awhile back.
I am not seeking sympathy, because I am not in a position to need it. In fact, it is just the opposite – I am incredibly blessed and humbled to be gifted with 3 beautiful children. I have been entrusted with them, and the task, while sometimes daunting, is full of reward and blessing! I think sometimes we shy away from being real and letting others know that we struggle. We ALL struggle and if someone tells you otherwise, please know, that is not the whole truth. My goal here is to encourage someone else who may feel alone in their particular struggle or season of life.
I don’t know what season of life that you are in right now, but I want you to be encouraged. It is only a season. One day, you will have but only a memory from this time and the reality of it will be no more. I am reminded of this as I think back on other seasons in my life that have passed. My heart aches as I think of my children growing older and one day not being little anymore. I know how quickly time passes. I know that while some days I am just going through my day with the goal of bedtime in mind, there will come a day when I might wish this time back. I also know that the Lord is growing me through this season. I am learning patience, gentleness, and I am learning to do everything, even the mundane tasks, with the intention of bringing glory to my Maker. Without these seasons, my heart could not be shaped the way that it is being shaped.
I want to encourage you, no matter the season that you are in. Perhaps it is one of joyful abundance and you are reaping the rewards and blessings from a more difficult season that has already passed. Perhaps you are struggling in a rocky season that is laced with thorns and rough terrain. Be encouraged. It is only a season. Rejoice in the fact that, you are being shaped, according to the will of your heavenly Father. James chapter one says, “2 Consider it a great joy, my brothers, whenever you experience various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. 4 But endurance must do its complete work, so that you may be mature and complete, lacking nothing.” and “12 A man who endures trials is blessed, because when he passes the test he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love Him.” Character does not just happen, it is formed. We do not and cannot see the larger picture, but rest assured, your Father does.